So this is pretty late, I know. And it is only one H post. But since this is pretty important to me we are going to call this my H section. I also still have no idea what to write about for I. I am open to ideas. Also, I know that I said there probably would not be blogging until after I got back from school and camping. Well I am slacking and instead of packing my shit, I decided to blog on this beautiful Beltane.
With my journey down a more shamanic path, I recently decided that I wanted to attempt a healing. My journeying has been getting better and I wanted to attempt the next step. Healing seemed like that logical next step. I have always been pretty good at other methods of healing and one day I want to be a professional healer. I am, after all, going to vet school. So this is why I decided to try this new-to-me technique.
So I grounded myself for a long time, knowing that this was going to be the longest journey that I had yet taken part in. I set myself up like I normally would for a working of this nature. I dressed in loose clothes and donned my bone choker. After a deep meditation, I started the drumming track and the journey. It started much like any other journey but when it came to applying my actual intent, I received an answer that i have never received outright before. A resounding “No.” I thanked them and then ended the journey in confusion. I wasnt angry, just confused. So I pulled out my animal oracle and asked why I had been refused when I tried to heal someone. The answer was two-fold. First, the person that I was trying to heal was not ready to be helped. He is not open to help and he needs to work on the problem himself. Secondly, I was told that I need to do some self work before I am ready to do a healing of this magnitude. I have to heal some of my own wounds and deal with some of my own issues before I am able to heal someone like this.
This was pretty profound for me. I decided that this will be a personal goal for me. I want to be able to perform a healing. That being said, I have to heal myself first. So I am setting upon a series of journeys to do just this.
I also am doing a little bit of crafting to help the process. I made a choker to wear for healing work. It is made of hemp and has seven wood beads. Each bead has a sigil drawn onto it. This was my first time that I have used sigils and I find them quite effective. It took a bit to get them right and to set aside my neuroses in order for me to just let them flow. Drawing them on the beads led to a bit of cussing and frustration in the beginning until I got into the swing of it. Once I was relaxed and refocused on my purpose they flowed pretty easily and feel very nice. So I completed those a couple of days ago and set them on my altar along with the piece of turquoise and the hemp to make the choker.
So last night, I crafted the necklace. The weather was not cooperating for my Walpurgisnacht plans. We had some sever thunderstorms, but I found a clear spot to go and at least meditate outside and make my offerings. The rest of the night was inside at my desk. I stated my purpose and began making the choker. I used a medium weight hemp and some macrame to craft it. With every know I tied my intention. This was my first time using knot magic, but I found that I liked it. I strung the beads and worked them into my intent with some words. I bound the whole necklace with one final knot and a binding bead.
Once I was finished, I took the necklace on a journey with me. The results were astounding. I am very happy that I did this and I cannot wait to see where I go from here.
I am glad that I got a chance to blog again before I went camping. I have a super busy next couple of days. Now that this is done, I am off to start packing everything. I will be altarless for two weeks. Wierd. I will get more posts out to you when I get back. I have a couple ideas for some things.