So, as per usual, things are not what we expect. I am about half way through my winter break now, and I am a little disappointed. I had grand visions that once finals were over, I would spend a good portion of my break being witchy, making fun things and developing my relationship with the Horned One. Alas, life got me down. Those of you who follow me on twitter know that I am a pre-veterinary medicine major who applied to vet school this past fall. I heard back from three of the four schools I applied to and they rejected me. Then I had my theatre scholarship taken away because they do not think I work hard enough for them. On top of this, the animal clinic told me I am not needed for break so I have no job. So, far from feeling witchy, I have been spending my time cleaning the house for my family and trying to determine what to do with my life. (the purpose of this blog is not to whine about my problems. The point will be coming shortly, I promise.)
I have now determined what to do about my future and the stress of preparing for Christmas is behind us, I find myself still not feeling very witchy. I have craved all semester to do some artwork and a little bit of practical magick. Lets call it a dry spell (HA! a pun!). I find that in my parent’s house it is just not the same as my own space back at school. For starters, I am not, upon punishment of death, allowed to burn candles in the house. Plus, I do not have any space here that feels sacred or special. Our back yard is open to our nosey suburban neighbors so there isnt a place there that I feel comfortable doing anything. I brought my Cernunnos home with me and he sits on my headboard, but it is no altar.
So instead of practicing, I have spent time learning. I have been reading my books and various blogs. Hoofprints in the Wildwood, Juniper’s blog Walking the Hedge, Bluedruid’s blog Feral Druidry, Nimue’s blog Druid Life Ive been listening to podcasts and pagany music. I also broke out my tarot deck, Druidcraft Tarot for the first time in over a year. I felt a pull from it, I think it may have been lonely. So I played with some tarot, but even there I wasn’t getting in the mood. So I spent time reading about the cards and studying them. I went onto Aeclectic Tarot and read the basic card meanings and the story that underlies the cards and thinking about tarot in general. I realized just how much tarot has to teach us. This has been my biggest break project and I am still working on it.
Going forward for the next two weeks or so, I want to continue reading and listening to podcasts. I can use this time to study and learn. I dont have anywhere around me that I can go walking in the woods, but I am walking my development. We have a small patch of trees next to the highway that is a huge swamp this time of year. It is untamed and I do enjoy walking by it. Plus being out in the open air with just the sound of the wind will be freeing. So that is what I am doing with my break. No grand witchcraft, no crazy crafting. Just some study and reflection while I prepare for next semester. I will also be straining my plantain oil and maybe testing the cayenne oil. Hopeully I will have some good blogging material so I can get some posts up during my 2 weeks of freedom.
I hope that everyone had a good Yule and Christmas and other holidays and that they have a safe New Year.